Admittedly, I have drank deeper from the latter than the former.
It seems easier, after all, to just wallow in defeat. The effort to stand up and overcome seems to be too much to bear at the time, but it’s necessary if we are to become who we are meant to be despite adversity.
I tend to have tunnel vision. I put too much focus on what is going on around me in the negative, than considering the bigger picture. That is natural to do. When you are wounded, you focus on the wound in order to heal as quickly as possible.
What if it cannot be healed quickly, or at all?
Imagine you ‘healed’ from something, just to get a negative diagnosis in the future. It happens all the time.
Healing is important, but it’s too easy to focus on recovery and we lose all focus of everything and everyone else in the meantime.
There is a tendency to feel guilt during this time of recuperation. There are feelings of worthlessness and desperation. We try our best to belong, to be present, yet we more often than not are overwhelmed beyond our efforts and it leaves those close to us scratching their heads. No one is to blame.
At times these events lead us into insanity. We may act out towards those we love in irrational ways. We may even go so far as to fashion a noose around our neck in an effort to escape the situation completely. Yet, that isn’t the answer. Though we are blind to see it at the time, we are needed and wanted.
